Overthinking

The interview went really well. I was there for 3 hours, so I think they liked me. By the end, I was brain fried and starving, and wandering around Back Bay in the heat trying to get my car out of the parking garage left me spaced out and shaky. They want me back next week and I have no idea how I’m going to swing another 3-hour interview during work hours. There are only so many bogus doctor’s appointments I can manufacture, especially when I have actual doctor’s appointments coming up. My boss is probably wondering how a healthy person such as myself has so many medical issues, and I feel like I’m calling down bad karma on myself by lying about my health.

Now I’m grappling with the concept of leaving my job and whether it’s really a good idea. I’ve never been one of those people who can stay at one job for more than a few years. My resume reflects this and I’m sensitive about having moved around so much. Maybe I should suck it up and stay where I am so I can BE at a job for more than 2 years. My job isn’t perfect but I’m in a groove here and I feel like I know what I’m doing. Do I really want to make a change for the sake of change? Am I a commitmentphobe when it comes to jobs? Part of me thinks I should stick it out—through the weeks when I have nothing to do and the times when the office politics are lethal—just to challenge the part of myself that always wants a change.

Really, if they make me an offer, the salary would be the deciding factor. The job would be very similar to what I’m doing now, except it has an actual career path and the possibility of travel. And it’s in the Hancock building, so I’d be downtown instead of in the burbs. Everything has pros and cons.